
I always felt like the lucky one when it came to major life decisions. Things have always fallen into place for me, especially my career. I kinda stumbled upon occupational therapy and instantly fell in love with the field. I knew what I wanted to get into even before I finished school. I ended up having a fieldwork assignment cancel and happened upon a quaint little brain injury facility where I was amazed at the therapists that worked there and thoroughly enjoyed my fieldwork rotation. I felt like it was OT Heaven. About a month before I graduated, they called an offered me a job. Although it was a big step to leave my family and friends in West Texas I knew it was a place I would enjoy, so I was ecstatic about working for this facility. For the past 11 years I have poured my heart and soul into this little place. I have been fortunate enough to work alongside some incredible therapists, meet amazing patients, present at Universities and conferences all over Texas, and even have a few publications under my belt. I climbed the "ladder of success" from intern to director and made amazing memories along the way. In fact, it was at this small facility that I met and fell in love with the man I married, the father of my precious children. I loved what I did and am passionate about brain injury recovery! That is why I really did not mind working more than 40 hours a week, staying later than necessary to finish up a report, or to work a little extra with a patient or two. I really thought I would be a one job career woman. I have always admired people that have worked for companies for 40+ years and assumed I would be "one of those" because I loved what I did,
that much.
It never really changed, the job is still wonderful, the people there are amazing. Yet, somewhere along the way, I came to the realization that something had to change.
I can pinpoint the moment where I realized I was slowly but repeatedly choosing work over my family. I drove into work leaving my sick little boy at home with Daddy, because I felt like my staff and patients
needed me there. I justified that Daddy was fully capable of caring for my son and I was
needed at my job. My job, the one where no one (but me) really cared that I was there early, staying late, and pouring out so much of myself that at the end of the day I was exhausted. I would come home and have nothing left for my own flesh and blood. I would get angry at my 4 year old and 2 year old for acting like, well, like a 4 year old and two year old
should act. After feeding, bathing, and getting them into bed, I would collapse into my own bed, with little communication with my husband. Something had to give.
So I quit.
I turned in a 3 month notice, probably initially so that I had time to talk myself out of quitting a job I loved so much. My boss completely thought I was joking when I told him I wanted to turn in my resignation; even with my resignation letter in hand, he looked at me and waited patiently for the "punch line". I was not at all subtle about how much I loved my job. I was an emotional wreck for the first month after turning in my resignation but every time I thought about my pros and cons, I would envision my sick little boy on the couch, with those BIG puppy dog eyes looking at me as I chose to drive away -
so I could help other people get better. That dreadful decision was wrong on so many levels and my heart was heavy for weeks over that moment.
So I quit.
Now I choose my family. I choose to be the Mom that is able to pick her kids up after school each day. I choose to work less hours in a less stressful environment. I choose to pour more into my own family. I am so thankful that my husband is supportive of less income so that I can be a better mom and wife.
This is not easy, I will miss my patients and the victories I was able to see everyday. I will miss my coworkers and all the hilarious moments we share. I will miss the craziness that comes with working in brain injury. BUT I will no longer miss my little family growing ever so quickly, right before my eyes. And really, that is what it is all about.
I am, beyond a shadow of a doubt, the lucky one.
Here are a couple pictures of the most amazing send off in history....I am going to miss this crazy bunch a lot! Honestly, my car was a work of art, this "gift" is something I will always cherish.